Remembering Dad
Nov 4, 2024
Mom and I are - very intentionally - not at home today. In fact, we are 2500+ miles from home in Kihei, HI. We are very thankful to Arden and Janet, our long time friends, for helping to facilitate our journey and acting as our native guides.
Because while the nation waits with varying degrees of fear, loathing, anxiety, and fretfulness to see who will be our next president, I find myself far more preoccupied with remembering my father on this first anniversary of his home-going.
It's been a tough year. I've never grieved a parent before, and have no idea what it is "supposed" to look like. So I don't know if I have been "doing it right." Close enough, I expect. There have been tears, if not quite as many as I imagined there might be. There has been anger, irritation, and testiness aplenty. There's been a lot of hard, often tedious work dealing with the reams of paperwork - mostly electronic, thank goodness - required for everything from the phone bill to the Roth IRAs. (I was often both grateful for the practical distraction of these necessities and resentful all at the same time!) And of course there has been a lot of remembering.
I thought it would be good today to make a record of some of the character traits I am most thankful for about my father, and the ones I hope to see reflected in my own life and passed down to his grandchildren.
Faith
Dad's was unwavering in his spoken and lived faith. While never flamboyant or demonstrative about that faith, (could there be any two words that less describe Dad?!) there is no doubt in my mind that Dad is with Him now, because he knew what he believed, and in Whom he believed, and that He was able to keep that which he'd committed unto him against that day. (2 Tim 2:12)
Integrity, Loyalty, Work Ethic, and Attention to Detail
Dad didn't ever do anything half way. If he accepted the job, it was going to get done, and it was going to be done well - even if it took all day. One of my fondest memories from recent years is when I asked him for help finding the leak in the moonroof on David's Camry. After some dire warnings about how hard it was to find leaks, he googled the problem and found it was a relatively simple issue of unblocking a drain. We took the car over to the shop at Twin Rocks (where he was volunteering full time) and he Macgyvered an attachment to some tool or another so he could get all the way in and unclog the whole thing. But of course that wasn't enough. We didn't leave the shop until we had fully detailed the vehicle, from polishing cloudy headlights to scrubbing off the moss that had attached itself to the rubber gaskets with a toothbrush. It had never been so clean!
When you walk most any large building at TRFC you'll find little labels by all of the switches and outlets mapping them to exactly the right fuse in the electrical box. He wrote the dates on every LED or CFL bulb he replaced so they could return the ones that died early under warranty. There was really no detail too small for him to pay attention to, nor a job he left hanging.
And you never met anyone more loyal to friends, employers, or wife than he was. He was always the proverbial guy you could rely on to "turn out the lights." He didn't walk away from anything - job, church, or anything else - until it was intensely clear in his mind that it was time. (He worked for the Corps of Engineers for 45 years!)
Practicality and Frugality
I don't think I knew you could buy pizza without a coupon when I was a kid. I mean, it simply wasn't done! The cars were almost always older than the kids. If there was any practical (or often impractical) way that he could do a job himself, he would. It was years and years before he would pay someone else to change his oil - and that only when he calculated that it actually saved him money to have Walmart do it! He loved playing the rebate game, and had a spreadsheet devoted to the task with entries for each product with all the details of what he'd submitted and when he received the money back. It was very hard for him to resist a good deal, and he loved tech of all kinds, but he was never a bleeding-edge adopter: he waited until the tech was established and the price down into reasonable territory before buying the TI-99 4a, C-64, 486, and finally Pentium computers.
He bought his shirts and vacuum cleaners at Salvation Army, took Mom out on dates at the local second run theater and Taco Bell or Baja Fresh (where they always brought back their cups for the refill discount), and generally saved as a matter of lifestyle. He had to be badgered into replacing his increasingly unreliable 20+ year old Volare Station Wagon in the late 90's, because he took pride in looking around a parking lot and finding his was the oldest car there. And then he took what he saved and invested wisely, leaving my mother extremely well provided for - we were truly shocked when we found out just how well he'd done.
He was someone you wanted nearby in a crisis, because he was extremely calm, practical, and solution oriented. Honestly, he was so practical that we mostly didn't Have crises growing up: he'd planned ahead. When it was time for me to look for summer jobs and internships he laid out the steps I should follow: make sure my resume included these items, mentions these skills, and is put on this person's desk. (Yes, I got the internship at the Corps!) He demonstrated more than actively preached that almost any problem could be broken down into steps and conquered with enough patience and logic.
Life Long Learning
Generosity
Tithing was just the start for Dad, and when the time came for mandatory withdrawals from his IRAs, a good deal of it was donated.
But he was even more importantly generous with his time. Those 4 years he worked at TRFC - often well over 40 hours a week - were entirely volunteer. He had planned and plotted to spend his "retirement" there for many years before he was able to make it a reality, and I believe he enjoyed nearly every moment of it. Even when he was working full time he frequently gave up his weekends to help a friend or family member wire something, install a floor, put up a popcorn ceiling, or any number of similar home improvement tasks. He painted my kids' rooms when we bought our house, replaced outlets with child safe ones, and did (or painstakingly explained to me how to do) dozens of other small homeowner tasks.
At his memorial, a fellow I'd grown up with at Lynwood told me how he had been tasked in college to do some sort of project touching on dams and salmon conservation or something like that, and he came to my dad for an expert's perspective. Dad took him to Bonneville and gave him a tour and an exhaustive lecture on the subject, giving my friend everything he needed for an excellent paper - and incidentally converting him to a life-long supporter of hydropower!
Gentleness
It's hard to think of a word that describes Dad better than gentleness. He was never one to be ruled by his emotions. When he got angry, you could mainly tell by the fact he was getting quieter and quieter. Raising his voice and demanding attention was never his style. He got his point across by gentle - but relentless - logic and practical thinking. He managed to save me from a potentially disastrous relationship back in college by discussing it with so much gentleness (and relentless logic!) that I didn't get angry at him. He was right. I didn't immediately break it off with the guy, but honestly, knowing that and why my Dad didn't find him worthy was a big deal to me and I think I knew from that moment that I wouldn't end up marrying him. (By contrast he was very clear that he liked David!)
Dad was also popular with the kids at church because he was always willing to let them "help" move tables, roll carpets, or whatever needed to be done when we were in our nomadic stage at City's Edge. He continued to instruct, encourage, and listen to them as they grew and is remembered very fondly by a whole crop of them. And there was rarely someone more ready for grandkids than Dad was - it was too bad that most of them didn't come along until he was over 60!
Humility
Dad hated attention. He was an introvert by personality, but also a natural leader - one that lead by doing, never demanding.
I could go on and on - I've barely scratched the surface, it feels! But I think it is truly the character trait of humility that sums him up the best. I can only pray that I develop this and these other traits in my own life.
Thank you, God, for your incredible goodness in giving Dad to me as my father, and thank you even more for taking him home to be with You when the time was right.
And thank for your promise given through Paul in 1 Thessalonians 4:
13 Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. 14 For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him.
15 According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16 For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17 After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever.